The stress really started to show the day after Christmas. I lost my appetite, regardless of how hungry I felt, and entered a season of restless sleep. On a good day, I'll eat one full meal and sleep for four solid hours without waking.
Strangely, the only way that I've been able to escape some of the stress is by taking a break to read parts of the Twilight series. For a minute my mind forgets everything outside of vampires and I can ignore the deadlines.
It is a strange season. I miss the peace.
As far as I can tell, the source of the stress lies in two things - a Kaiser project that I am designing for Ratcliff and my grad school application. I have hit my threshold - I don't think I can hold another droplet of responsibility right now. This Twilight thing already makes me question my sanity :)
I keep telling myself two things:
1. It will pass... eventually.
2. You've been here before.
(In studio at Kansas State - I forget how much stress I've endured in the past.)
Relief is not far away - next week the application is due and it will be released from my hands and my control. I am dying with restlessness...
And February 16th - the first stage of this Kaiser project is due. The photo above is of my workstation at Ratcliff. There are piles of sketches scattered all over. And colored pencils - my sketching tool of choice. The office gave me a new set of 48 colored pencils yesterday - I was overly happy about this :)
Only a few more days...
On the positive side - I wouldn't mind losing a pound or two. I sure do miss peaceful sleep though.
3 comments:
you will make it...i have no doubt!
i hear you guys are having fun visitors at the end of the month!
i kept track of the books i read in 2008 for the first time through shelfari and plan on doing it again this year. keeps me from bringing home a book from the library and getting halfway through then realizing that i have read it already.
one of my girlfriends from work took my twilight books on vacation to mexico and i want them back! i was just getting ready to start a re-read on the series when she left and wanted them for her and her daughter... love them!
I'm sorry Nikki! I'm glad you see an end in sight.
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