Thursday, October 11, 2007

How do you know?

When your mind starts racing and you can actually feel your heart beat... how do you know if it's just childlike excitement or your soul and your mind converging? How do you know if it's just emotion and anxiety... or God pressing your spirit? How do you know if it's rebellion and stubbornness that pulls you forward instead of humility and grace? How do you discern? From where in the infinite universe are these thoughts coming from? Why do I love to ponder them... yet find myself unable to express them? This tightness in my chest... is it something burning within me that needs to get out... or just my insecurities causing anxiety? I don't know what to do with them all... these thoughts. Sometimes I feel as though we are on the brink of greatness... as though we are just on the verge of a discovery that has the potential to affect all humanity... and sometimes I wonder if I am just worried... or restless... or anxious...

How do you know?

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